I did all of this because I decided to keep coming back. I began to develop and grow a relationship with God.I became honest with myself as a person who would look from the outside.I began to share who I was and what I was doing.I remembered it is practice not perfection.I became willing to listen more than sharing.I found others who were aligned with me.Here are some of the things that I found out as part of coming back. Mind you, I hadn’t been there but a few months and yet telling that to other people, there for their first or second or even third meeting, was a way that I found to give back. Slowly, I began to compile time under my belt, and I began to see others coming in for the very first time and they were as excited to hear the phrase “keep coming back” as I was when I had first arrived. As I began to see my life transformed, they wanted to hear me share as well. Coming back became my fuel and it would drive me to meetings just to listen to others as they would share their life transformation. When you deny yourself the sustenance of life for as long as I did, feasting at a table with untold wisdom and practical applications to truth was the secret of a lifetime. I was coming back because of how I was being fed. As I began to see myself change, I no longer had to be told to keep coming back. Little by little, as one would chip away paint and remove layer by layer, I began to see how coming back was putting me in position to learn what I needed to learn so I could grow the way I wanted to grow. They knew if I was willing to come back, eventually the most challenging and revealing information given to even the most prideful person would break the icy denial that flows through our veins. It was the fellowship I craved and somehow this group knew it. The more I got to know the individuals in the rooms of recovery the more I knew they meant it. At first, I thought they were just saying it because it was a cool and catchy thing to say. ![]() You can imagine my pleasing surprise when, in a chanting fashion, at the end of an AA or NA meeting, they would say “keep coming back, it works”. Remember when we had worn out our welcome in so many ways? Even the people who should love us the most, knew that asking us to come back was probably not a good idea. Other than that, your asking me to come back was not a good decision for you. The only reason you would ask me to come back would be because I had more money for alcohol and or I had a better supply of drugs than you. The last thing anyone would consider to be a logical request would be to ask me to come back. So many of us come from a place where we have worn out our welcome long before they finally asked us to leave. If there was anything more valuable than this three-word phase I don’t know what it would be.
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